hi again

January 3o just seems like a good day for a new start. Maybe it's something in the stars that has motivated me, who knows. I'm committed to dedicate more time here starting today. I miss self-documentation and think that getting back to the things that really make me happy is a great way to start off. I seem to have a tendency to try to change things up all the time, usually this only results in me coming back to what was working in the beginning.

This past Fall was an interesting time of great happiness as well as some very distinct feelings of unrest. I was feeling so good in October that I decided to stop taking my anti-depressant/anti-anxiety med (Cymbalta) and thought, personally, that I was doing fine. But looking back, that was about the time my anxious unrest began. During and after Christmas things seemed to escalate at a rapid speed. I was constantly stressed, nervous, anxious and slightly angry. I called doc early Jan and started back up on the Cymbalta. It calmed me down considerably, but I've been very depressed - classic symptoms of fatigue and lack of enjoyment with the things I LOVE. I had an appointment yesterday to voice my concerns and was told that it is not uncommon for these types of drugs to lose their effectiveness after a few years (it's been 4 for me) and it often helps to change things up a bit. So... he gave me some samples of a fairly new drug called Prestiq and, yes, today is the first day. So here's to my onward and upward... once again.

I have tons more to post here but that will have to wait for another time. My two beautiful boys are sitting on the floor next to me playing Operation and would like nothing more than to have me play with them. Just call me "steady."